I'm really trying to focus on the now. NOW I am pregnant, the most pregnant I've ever been in fact! But it's hard not to think about other stuff...
Showing posts with label hope. Show all posts
Showing posts with label hope. Show all posts
Wednesday, September 4, 2013
Confession
Confession: I bought more pee sticks. Just the super cheap ones from Amazon. I am really feeling no symptoms, especially yesterday and today, and it's making me nervous. I go in for my intralipids tomorrow and will find out when my ultrasound will be. I think I will need to test every other day or so just to stay sane between now and then.
I'm really trying to focus on the now. NOW I am pregnant, the most pregnant I've ever been in fact! But it's hard not to think about other stuff...
I'm really trying to focus on the now. NOW I am pregnant, the most pregnant I've ever been in fact! But it's hard not to think about other stuff...
Tuesday, September 3, 2013
This is real life!
It's beta day, and it's a good day!
Beta #1 that was taken on Friday, 8/30/13, at 9dp5dt (14 DPO) was 108.4. Pretty on the mark since it was 2 days after the digital turned positive. Today's beta at 13dp5dt (18DPO) is 565.2!!! That's a doubling time of 40.3 hours! It's doubling faster than the ideal time of 48 hours! YAHOO! I found a fun website that makes a chart with your betas and compares them to averages. Here's what mine looks like:
This is also going to be my last pee stick progression picture. I feel withdrawal coming! I keep telling myself it has to stop sometime and I'm not sure the line can get any darker than it already is.
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After all of this excitement today, I talked to my friend this afternoon who did a FET at my clinic 3 weeks prior to mine. She had really good betas starting out. She told me today that at her ultrasound they discovered that the baby stopped growing at 5 1/2 weeks, and she should have been 7 weeks. I feel so, so bad for her. And it was a huge reminder that just because my betas are good, doesn't mean I'm out of the woods. Ugh.
Beta #1 that was taken on Friday, 8/30/13, at 9dp5dt (14 DPO) was 108.4. Pretty on the mark since it was 2 days after the digital turned positive. Today's beta at 13dp5dt (18DPO) is 565.2!!! That's a doubling time of 40.3 hours! It's doubling faster than the ideal time of 48 hours! YAHOO! I found a fun website that makes a chart with your betas and compares them to averages. Here's what mine looks like:
This is also going to be my last pee stick progression picture. I feel withdrawal coming! I keep telling myself it has to stop sometime and I'm not sure the line can get any darker than it already is.
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After all of this excitement today, I talked to my friend this afternoon who did a FET at my clinic 3 weeks prior to mine. She had really good betas starting out. She told me today that at her ultrasound they discovered that the baby stopped growing at 5 1/2 weeks, and she should have been 7 weeks. I feel so, so bad for her. And it was a huge reminder that just because my betas are good, doesn't mean I'm out of the woods. Ugh.
But for today I'm going to enjoy the moment.
I'm the most pregnant that I've ever been.
Thursday, August 29, 2013
What to feel?
Today is my EDD from the December pregnancy. August 29, 2013. I don't even know what to feel today. This journey has been so long, so hard. Pokes, prodes, waiting, disappointment, loss. I could have a baby in my arms today. Tears.
But today there is also hope, because I am still pregnant. And the lines are still getting darker. My first beta is tomorrow but boooo hiissssss their policy is not to call until after the second, which is Tuesday. I'll be begging tomorrow, but I doubt that will change anything.
In other news, I tried a Pinterest project last night and it turned out GREAT! This is my new cover for my iPhone:
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